Disappointment is such a terrible feeling.
The last time I was disappointed I was a senior in high school. A name had just been called for homecoming queen. Not my name.
I was left standing in the middle of the gym floor, wondering why I wasn't good enough.
Don't get me wrong; I am not a sore loser. I was genuinely happy for the winner.
But? There are only so many times you can be left waiting for your name to be called before you start questioning yourself.
Why am I here?
What did I do wrong?
Why am I not good enough?
I pride myself in being a go-getter. I usually have no problem picking myself up when I fall.
But? Dusting the dirt off of yourself gets old.
I am just kicking dirt, waiting for my name to be called.
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I so get that. It sucks waiting around for your name to be called, all the while getting more and more discouraged. Keep your chin up, whatever it is Im sure your time is coming! XO
ReplyDeleteIt makes you question and reevaluate why you are doing what you're doing, doesn't it? Which in the end is a good thing for me because it helps me push on.
DeleteI think that many of us feel the same way so often no matter what the situation is. I know that I wonder what I did wrong... what can I do better.... how do I change and so on.
ReplyDeleteEventually it will be our time and we will be the ones who are called!!
It can be tiring at times. But it's great to be questioning ourselves at times because as we reflect, we may be more and get better with time ;)
ReplyDeleteThis is why I love blogging!! You get to see issues from other people's perspectives! Thank you for sharing and enlightening me!
DeleteI agree - failures are life lessons!
Oh girl you totally are in my head right now. (following you from SITS btw). It gets tiring waiting...and more waiting. I guess good things come to those who wait...for their name to be called. That's how I try to look at it.
ReplyDeleteI am so impatient so I get how hard it is to wait for your name to be called and then when it is not...ugghh...hard to live with disappointment. Hoping your name will be called soon.
ReplyDeleteI know how that feels. I try to remind myself that my turn will come or remind myself of the times when it was my turn- and that I can't have everything. It's hard to remember though.
ReplyDeleteI do need to remind mysef of the times when I was called and be thankful! Thanks for pointing that out!
DeleteWaiting sucks - no question about it. I hope that it goes well for you and that your name is called soon.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya! I usually try to get so busy doing other things that when they call my name, they have to call it twice. ;)
ReplyDeleteLove this!!! And you!!!
DeleteI'm off to get busy!
Oh, do I relate to this. so so so so much. I hope your name is called soon my friend. xo
ReplyDeleteI don't know that I've put myself out there often enough to feel this way...you've given me something to think about!
ReplyDeleteI think I'm on the opposite spectrum - I almost put myself out there too much!
DeleteI've forgotten that having your name called is NOT the reward for stepping out there.
I can so relate to this! I often feel myself worrying over what I did wrong, or why I'm not good enough. But, I'm trying to teach myself to remember that my time is coming, too. And so is yours. xo
ReplyDeleteI can relate to this in SO many ways. Not just phone calls, but the waiting to be picked. Yeah, it hurts a lot sometimes.
ReplyDeleteYep we have all felt this way...it is not fun my friend!
ReplyDeleteI feel this way in my role as "step-mom."
ReplyDeleteHard. But I agree with MamaMash. I try to stay busy to keep from getting disappointed, too. :)
you took the words right out of my mouth. literally. i was trying to figure it out, and you said it. i'm just waiting to be called.
ReplyDeleteWe all feel like this sometimes. It is ok to kick about a bit before you go get them again!
ReplyDeleteWaiting stinks and disappoint hurts even worse. Hoping your name is called very soon. This is beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you've been disappointed, but oh, I can relate to the waiting. What a hard feeling!
ReplyDeletexo girl! Waiting totally sucks. If it makes you feel better - I never had the courage to put my name in for homecoming queen. Courage is power girl - and you are.
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